rhythm

So everyone has told me from before I started school on-line that there would be a rhythm.  I hated them for saying that.  I could not find a rhythm.  All I found was stress and hours and hours at the computer.  Actually hours at the computer, some at the laptop and then lots of reading.  I was cursing people for talking about rhythm.  I wanted to tell them that this white girl has no rhythm.  For real.  Last spring I took my daughter to a concert for her 23rd birthday and I was standing up dancing (like everyone else) and my daughter, as nice as she could, told me to sit down.  I had no rhythm.  
Well I think at week 10 of a 12 week semester I have found my rhythm.  I know how to get things done and how it all works.  
Rhythm is good and I just hope I don't lose it during the semester break. 

Chemo eve

Well, yes I go to college, on line, but this morning it is lucky that I am still going.  You see, today my father is starting chemo and radiation for esophagus cancer.  Chemo every week and radiation every day. (which ends about when the semester ends)  He will need to be driven to appointments and I get to drive him to about 60-70% of his appointments.  I say get to because I think it is a privilege.  But yesterday, the eve of it all, it was too much.  I lost it.  I was crying, sitting at my desk doing homework.  I called my husband, crying.  I texed my friend who is high up there somewhere in the ladder of BYU-I on-line and said that I was going to quit school.  His response was, "that's dumb".  He came over and was basically my cheerleader and told me how dumb it was for an A student to quit.  Showed me there was a calculator that could figure out my grade if I didn't turn in assignments called a "what-if" calculator.  (who knew?!)
And then there is my sweet husband who told me the things I needed to hear.  Who hugged me and listened to me and who continues to support me.
So yesterday on the eve of my dad's chemo and radiation start date, I didn't make dinner, I didn't clean the house, I didn't get very much homework done but I didn't quit college either!